Weddings and things

The wedding season has begun! My best friend got married last weekend, a bit surreal and crazy (I was the maid-of-honor, so I was busy!) but it was great. I had never been to a wedding with a date before, my boyfriend was able to come because he was singing in the wedding with me. I decided I liked being at a wedding "with" someone, you have a guaranteed dance partner and someone to keep you company as well. Weddings are a good place to learn how you want to do your own wedding, what you want and don't want, need and don't need...it gives you a good basis for your own future, if marriage is in your future that is. I maintain that I would be perfectly happy as a single person, but being married has its perks I am sure.

I am moving to California. A bit of a change from my mid-west life that I've grown to love, particularly this city (Chicago for those of you who are clueless, if you are you shouldn't even be reading this). I don't want to move, but...it's either move or lose the person I love most, and I think moving is a pretty small sacrifice given the latter choice. It's coming up soon, too soon. June 12 is my last day of work and I'm hoping to be packed and ready to leave on the 13 or the 14...but hopefully the 13. I'll be home for 2 weeks to spend time with my family and then Alex will be flying to SD to drive with me all the way to where he lives in CA. A long drive, I'm grateful I don't have to make it alone and even more grateful that I get to make it with him. I decided today that I'm not ready, but I have to make myself be ready. I know I will be happy once I'm there, but I don't think I am looking forward to it as much as I initially was. It's a big deal, and it's really happening, which is more scary than I had thought it would be...an excited, nervous sort of fear, but still scary regardless. I love him, more than anything, and it will be okay...it's what God wants and what will be the best for both of us. I just have to keep telling myself this.